confessions of a commitment phobe!


so m feeling all romantic today.. could be due to this boy i have been seeing for the last… cant believe almost a year! he really rocks my world.. tho this is the only place i will EVER admit that he is a Dutchman come to work in Kenya.. temporarily…..??

honestly speaking, i have never felt this way about anyone before, probably because i never let anybody in (thus calling myself a commitment phobe..;)) but i always believed that  when the right person comes by they would automatically fall. well i am still on the journey of completely letting my walls down but i cant help but feel scared as hell to do so. what if i give him my all then he goes back home and i am just some conquest he had ..and enjoyed, in Africa? what if i catch him in bed with a girl? what if hes a closeted gay??l what if our worlds are too different for us to handle? he goes to a different church than me..?? what if he doesnt feel the same way? but then when i look into his eyes, and we kiss.. i just… don’t want to think but just be.. with him… for the moment.  never did i ever think i would be looking up mushy quotes so that i can feel as though i am not the only one to feel this way. but i need to confess something to him…



Author: Sheznitt

A 26 year old editor, social media strategist and blogger. I love to write and am happy for the opportunity to entertain and inform you through my blogs.

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